here's something 4 u to read

DEATH MAKES YOUR NOSE STUFFY.YOUR BODY WON'T LET YOU BREATH,JUST LIKE YOUR MIND WON'T LET GO OF THE PERSON LOST.YOU GRIEVE TO THE POINT WHEN YOU WANT TO HURT YOURSELF MENTALLY BUT YOUR FLESH,YOUR OWN BIOLOGICAL MACHINERY WON'T LET IT HAPPEN.BY SIMPLY SHUTTING DOWN YOUR NOSE,MAKING YOU CHOKE INTO YOUR OWN SECRETIONS.THE BODY SENDS THE MOST LIFE-REASSURING MESSAGE TO THE MIND:"YOU ARE STILL ALIVE..."...AND YOU CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER IS THAT WHAT YOU REALLY SORROW OVER.YOU WISH YOU COULD WISH BACK BUT YOUR WILL CAN ONLY GO FORWARD.SOMEHOW THE DAYS ROLL OVER INTO A BLUR OF FAKE SMILES,RESPONSIBILITIES AND INSOMNIA.BUT SOMEWHERE IN THE BACKGROUND THE LOSS IS STILL TO CLOSE.YOU SUDDENLY BECOME AN OBSERVER OF WHAT YOU DO AND SAY.A DISTANT BEING OF YOUR OWN EXISTENCE,CONSTANTLY LOOKING TO BE OCCUPIED,BUSY,MAKING SOMETHING,DEALING WITH IMPORTANT ISSUES.ANYTHING BUT THINK ABOUT IT...ALMOST LIKE YOU ARE TRYING TO GET OVER A CIGARETTE CRAVING,BUT WE DON'T GET OVER DEATH.WE GET OVER LIFE.I GUESS EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN "BOTTOM LINE" ABOUT DEATH.SOME BELIVE IN GOD,TRYING TO PUT A REASON TO IT.OTHERS REVENGE IT BY DESTROYING THEIR LIVES.THIRD REFUSE TO DEAL WITH IT AND IGNORE IT.IN ANY CASE WE LIVE AND THIS IS LIFE.HERE AND NOW...LOOKING BACK I FIND MYSELF ASKING MILLIONS OF QUESTIONS ABOUT REASONS,MEANINGS AND OTHER LIFE DEFINING MATTERS.NOW THE QUESTIONS ARE GONE,BECAUSE DEATH PUT TIME TO THE PICTURE AS AN INDEFINABLE VARIABLE.TIME HAS CHANGED THE EQUATION OF MY LIFE.SOMEONE ONCE SAID YOU GROW UP WHEN YOU REALIZE YOU ARE GOING TO DIE.WELL TODAY MAYBE IT WILL BE MY DAY AND I CRY..I CRY FOR MYSELF..